| new year, new journal |
[January 01, 2007 @ 3:42pm] |
qrstravisss
add it if you want, and leave a comment so i remember to add you back
i'm done here.
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| great googly moogly |
[November 10, 2006 @ 7:08pm] |
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so i made a new lj
which i plan on using from now on
after i get a layout
and put all the info in
it might be friends only too
but, i forgot what i named it
i'll post again eventually with the name
i would do it right now but im lazy and want food.
hi
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| she changes your mind |
[September 05, 2006 @ 8:20pm] |
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last day of summer..
i've spent it listening to music, cleaning up, eating, and myspacing. i = bum
this summer was alot better than most of my summers. i actually did stuff, and actually have friends and people i like to hang out with. went to warped tour, taking back sunday, seattle a few times, warped tour, local shows, etc.
bumbershoot was last weekend, it was fun. saw afi the first day, but the 2nd day was more enjoyable. we went to flatstock, a poster convention. tonsss of artists and stuff, it was amazing. i bought 2 posters. next year im saving up a bunchhh of money for it. to get alot of posters.
school starts tomorrow. im feeling kind of numb towords the whole idea. like the ups and downs seem to just balance out right now, although eventually the downs usually weight things down. im not really looking forword to the difficult teachers, the assholes, the retards, jealousy, classes i dont want, and alot of other things that come along with high school.
i am looking forword to alot of things though. being around people and doing something all day, so i dont feel like such a bum all the time. and shows and stuff. friends. art. usually im really bummed/nervous right about now. bummed because the summers over, and i'd have to deal with school and being made fun of or something retarded because i didnt look and act like everyone else. not that i do now, i think ive just built up alot more self confidence/self esteem than i ever had before.
i've changed so much within the past year, it amazes me.
mentally and physically.
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| come on, feel the illinois |
[August 08, 2006 @ 3:54am] |
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soooo its late. i've been sitting around pretty much since like 12. thats like, 4 hours. of me sitting around. in the past 4 hours i've: eaten a sandwich, watched tv, played counterstrike, myspace, got new lj layout, messed with pictures, drank apple juice, went pee, brushed teeth, wondered why the hell im still up, set my alarm, look at shoes online, etc..
well
i havent done much at all. i should've just went to sleep at 1:00 when i was sitting in bed watching tv thinking to myself "i should just go to bed"
but i didnt. so ive been on my computer with this gay keyboard for hours, listening to sufjan. i set my alarm for 10:30. im only gonna get like 6 hours of sleep, give or take. but i'll force myself to get up then, go to the gym thing, take a shower, and be good to go.
helllla netflix movies tomorrow:
kicking and screaming
kingdom of heaven
garden state
im sleeping.
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| ahhh |
[August 06, 2006 @ 3:20pm] |
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man i love sin city. the way it was done is soooo freaking neat. i almost forgot i had the dvd. i might watch it today.
i was reading about sin city 2. they haven't started recording yet. i guess its rumored that they're waiting to see angelina jolie's availability, because they want her for a part.
now.
back to will ferrel movies on comedy central
and gilmore girls marathon on abc family
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shut up.
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[August 06, 2006 @ 4:01am] |
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wellll
i haven't updated in hella long
so i guess this counts
it's like frickin
4:00AM
my moms not hom
she stayed out with Adam
she left Cameron here with don
and miyah and xander
which is fucking retarded
because cameron never sleeps through the night
when shes gone
he just wakes up crying and throws a fit about how he wants his mom
it annoys the hell out of me
he turns 4 in a month
he's big
he should not still be doing this
most of the time its just him being a brat trying to get what he wants
he's been up off and on all night
the last time he woke up throwing up
after he was all cleaned up i put him to sleep in my moms bed
hopefully he'll stay asleep in there
my entries are always way too long
i dont have anything exciting to talk about really
im tired
i couldnt sleep
ill probably try again here in a few
hoorayyy for lame updates
i'll be less boring eventually, i promise
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[August 05, 2006 @ 12:53am] |
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CHARIZARD!
FLAME THROWER ATTACK NOW!
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[June 11, 2006 @ 7:12pm] |
well, this is really hard for me to say to everyone
but it's a secret i just can't keep
ilysia uses pickles to pleasure herself
i know, i know, you're thinking "how do you know this?"
but no, i am absolutely positive
she tells me these things
thank you all for listening
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| Oh joy |
[June 07, 2006 @ 4:21pm] |
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Sooo I have 2 finals tomorrow
I cant wait until theyre over with
theyre really big on my grade im thinking
The one in spanish will determine wether or not i pass the class. If I do really well on it, I will have a C. If I don't do so well, I will drop to an F I beleive. I have a D now.
Math, I'm worried about too. I don't know my grade but I've never done good on tests in there. I can't say i know if this test will impact my grade alot, it might already be too low to fix. I just learned most of the stuff today, im still confused about some stuff but ill try to figure it out
My grades this semester are going to be bad, possibly the worst in my life.
I really dont want to slack off next year.
Scratch that.
I am not going to slack off next year.
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[May 22, 2006 @ 9:34pm] |
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So to whoever says high school years are supposed to be the best years of your life: I'm not convinced
I just woke up soaking wet. Very uncomfortable, I think I broke my fever. I really can't miss school tomorrow because I'm pretty sure I'm failing Spanish, I've just dug myself into a hole that I honestly don't think I'm getting out of. I didn't do my report for Pac-Rim either, I would've done that today if I didn't feel like shit. Maybe I'll get it done before 3rd period.
I'm amazed at how quickly things in life can change. One second things can seem fine but within the blink of an eye everything is messed up. Why can't we all just live in this fantasy land where everything is always fine, and there were never feelings or drama or anything.
I've been thinking alot lately, wondering what I'm gonna do with my life. I'm pretty sure I'm not going to get into college, and if I did I still have no idea what I'd study..
I'm not the terrible person you suddenly think I am.
I would never do anything to hurt you, whether or not you want to beleive it.
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| If I can choose: |
[May 18, 2006 @ 5:26pm] |
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So, it's sad this doesn't suit you now.
And me fresh out of rope...
Please ignore the lisp, I never meant to sound like this.
So take me and break me and make me strong like you.
I'll be forever grateful to this and you.
It's only you, beautiful.
Or I don't want anyone.
If I can choose it's only you.
Fix me to a chain around your neck and wear me like a nickel.
Even new wine served in old skins cheapens the taste.
I shot the pilot, now I'm begging you to fly this for me.
I'm here for you to use, broken and bruised.
Do you understand?
It's only you, beautiful.
Or don't want anyone.
If I can choose, it's only you.
But how could I miscalculate...
Perfect eyes will have perfect aim.
If I can choose, it's only you.
We're wrecking and I'm dry like a drum...when you scream
So fine I'll leave... we're spent... we've got time and trials...
Measured in miles... we slave for days (and weeks).
It's only you, beautiful.
Or I don't want anyone.
If I can choose. It's only you.
But how could I miscalculate... perfect lies from a perfect dame.
If I can choose... it's only you.
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| hella |
[May 17, 2006 @ 5:41pm] |
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So I haven't updated in a while
uhmmm.. so whats new
I've been in decent moods lately. Kind of. I'm doing really bad in a few classes, which is no fun. Oh well.
I'm kind've in a band, but its not really rolling yet. Erik is really flaky, but Skylar (guitarist) and Miguel (drummer) are both really cool. Skylar has another band called Lay Down Your Guns, and I wish I would've talked to him sooner because I would've tried out for them, because.. not to brag, but I'm pretty sure I'm better than the guy they got to fill the spot. And I happen to be a frickin G. But yeah.
Skylar wants to call it Murder in the First. As in like first degree murder. Yeah, we'll see. It's steering in the direction of like.. hardcore/deathmetal/metal or whatever. Music is love, and its fun, even if we do end up just screwing around. I've been going to alot of shows lately, and I'm going to 1 or 2 this weekend. It's cool, I've been meeting new people, and thats cool.
I need to practice more often. I can so get better. Having people to play with motivates me so much more, and music is something I can see myself doing for the rest of my life. Whether I make a living out of it or not, I will be playing guitar until I'm old and have too much arthritis in my hands to play a note. I promise you that.
I'm still working on the whole losing weight thing. I think its kindve coming along. I stopped doing the dumb shit i was so yeah. And I'm exercising regularly. Pimpin
I need to redo my lj. and get more cool lj kidfriends. and make a new layout. and i need new clothes, and to lose the rest of this travisblub. I might get the peircings i've been contemplation for about a year and a half now. I'm a big puss, so the lip thing might be a little more than i bargained for, but I'll deal with it. I think snakebites are toight. If i dont like them, I'll just take one out. And then I might gauge my ears to a 0. People are hearing this and get mad at me, like saying that I'm changing and becoming "like them" well if you think that, honestly: Kiss my ass. I'm just becoming more comfortable with myself slowly, and feeling like expressing myself more. I do think Snakebites and ear plugs would be cool.
Man I could sit here all day and write shit
but I really dont think anybody reads this anymore
not that many ever did
but eh
today was an odd day
and uhh
yeah
im going to go play my guitar
fucks
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| Back from the show |
[April 29, 2006 @ 9:24pm] |
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Hells Kitchen. It was frickin kickasss. I wasn't sure if I was gonna get to go or not cuz I didn't wanna just go by myself and see if I knew anybody there. I called Mike (meh) and he was right by my house so I just took him. Oh yeah, and remember those tight pants i told you about? yeah mike made me wear them. he said they "fit my personality" or something. wth? But I did. thenn to the show
The first band was like a Quiet Uprising or something. They were alright but I didn't get too into them, plus we came in right an the end of their set.
Next up was From Aphony. Fuckkkss yeahh. They played a couple songs, and I just kinda sat back and watched. I looked around to see if I knew anyone and I saw that wierd kid from ilysia's PE class. For one reason or another, I've come to dislike the kid. As I looked around I saw him and I kinda doubled back like "wtf?" cuz he was standing there in his hoody all creepy like. He glared at me like an ass, but I didn't care. I gave him that "I could take you and you know it" grin/look (yeah, there's a look for that). Yes, I can be an asshole. I'll bustacap. And then Jake was like "this song is called result of a murder" I was like "ohhhh shiitt" (they don't play that live alot and I love that song) So the moshing/jumping/dancing/crazyness begun. Funnn.
After them we saw Aaron Sweet and Zach Shepard (sp??). I'd never met aaron before, but we both knew who eachother was (ppl know who I am?) and then me and zach were friends in like 5th-7th grade. So it was coo. We danced and then the next band came on.
A Chance Without. A heard them on myspace before and they weren't bad but didn't seem great. Man they fuckin rocked. The guitarists are hella cool and so is the singer. So we moshed and whatnot to them, and then like sign languaged to them cuz they were pimps. Some chick came up next to me and like, grabbed the inside parts of her shirt (yanno, like she was gonna pull it down and let em out) I was like "wtffff lady" and then I tried to signal to aaron and zach what was goin on. I pointed to her and then jumped and opened my jacket exposing my chest... zach looked at me like i was crazy then did a squeezing motion with his hand. And then aaron was like "?" and copied me.. Then she like pulled her shtuff out and we were all like "EWWWW." and then she left. (lol) After they were done the guitarist was talking to me and mike and wanted us to chill with them after the show. We didn't though, cuz mike had to go pick up his gf after the show. (ew)
Last was Fall From Grace. They reminded me alot of like, Aiden with some Misfits influence (you know screamo/horrorpunk gothy stuff) They weren't my favorite but they sounded good and put on a good show. During their first show things got crazy, and the last clear thing i saw was a fist. the rest of the show was blurry from there. after the show zach found one of my lenses, and then they suggested i get an eye patch for the other eye and tape the lense to my face.. lol
my mom was kinda pissed off but i was like "now you have to get me an eye appt." (i'm getting contacts goddammit)
so yeah. I wish i had brought a camera but its probably better i didnt, otherwise i'd be fucked. it was hella fun though, and i needed to get out and do something. although having blurry vision makes me unhappy..
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| Ghost Man on Third |
[April 29, 2006 @ 10:39am] |
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"If you need me
I'm out and on the parkway,
patient and waiting for headlights,
dressed in a fashion that's fitting to the
inconsistencies of my moods
It's times like these, where silence means everything
And no one is to know about this"
TBS = love. Pretty much. I don't feel too good. My chest kinda hurts sometimes. Plus a cold. Blah.
This year has been pretty interesting so far. This year as in 2006, or since September I guess, so Sophomore year. Either way, yeah. Its been alot. I've gotten used to alot of the crap, and I think I'm a pretty smart person (not necessarily school-wise) so I'll be okay. I wanna go to the mall today and look at jeans and a new hoody and shoes and wristbands or something. I won't be able to get everything today, but I can get whichever ones I find and like best.
I found these jeans the other day that are like hella tight (not tight as in cool) and they're all ripped and shit. I found them in my dresser (thats where all the clothes go that I don't wear, except the sock/underwear drawer.) and I was like wtf? I tried them on and they fit, theyre like 3" smaller than the waist size i've been wearing. Maybe I just buy my pants way too big.
Or, its the fact that somehow over the course of the past few months I've apparently lost like 20lbs. I don't really see it as a big deal because I honestly dont give a shit about the number, I just wanna feel better. Like in shape you know, not like *blublub*. But the weights still coming off, and I'm slowly starting to notice it. I can see like some of the bones/veins in places that I never could before, that you can see on most people. And I can start to see certain muscle structures and stuff like on my arms, which is neat. Before it was just like a big gross blob of travisblubber.
I've been sick alot lately. Like just always sick one way or another. But its probably just my immune system sucking from losing weight too fast. Thats what happened last year when I was really sick (I was sick with [something bad] for like a month last year. it was gross) I kept getting sick afterwords. But yeah.
You know those guys that are pretty much the basic stereotype of guys. The ones who supposedly "only want sex" and seem careless in a relationship, like they don't really care about the person they're with. I used to think they were stupid and all that, but I don't think I do anymore. I think I might've figured out why they're like that, and, I don't blame them. It's probably a smart idea.. Who knows.
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| hooray for WASL |
[April 18, 2006 @ 8:51pm] |
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So I wake up thismorning feeling like shit. Nothing too unusual, it is me after all. Then I had these killller friggin stomach cramps. Went to school and felt like crap during the wasl. Skipped both of my classes afterwords with devon and brandon, just cuz. I was feeling okay until the end of the day, and it went downhill from there. I haven't thrown up or anything yet, but thats probably because the only thing I've eaten all day is Celery + peanut butter..
And I had hot chocolate, because it looked good. So I've been laying around pretty much all day. I just watched gilmore girls.. ew wtf.
Now I'll probably sleep, with hopes I feel less shitty tomorrow for the other half of the math wasl (the part that counts)
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| First thing's first |
[April 15, 2006 @ 10:33pm] |
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I feel the need to state my opinions on some things. Just some advice (you could call it) to some girls out there.
-It is not attractive when you cuss like a sailor. I mean sure, people cuss, but when its clearly obvious you're forcing it out to try to sound cool or whatever, you're an idiot. Sorry.
-Bragging about how wasted you got that one time doesn't make you look cool, interesting, attractive or anything for that matter - other than stupid.
-There is nothing sexy about looking slutty. Maybe some guys think so, but unless you are a slut, chances are those aren't the type of guys you want to be with.
I could go on but I wouldn't want to hurt anybody's feelings. This isn't directed towords anyone on here, so don't worry. If I offended you, sorry I guess. Just some things that were on my mind.
And I'm sorry, but stupid people really annoy me. Unless you have a good excuse for being a complete dumbass, chances are I won't like you.
Anyyywayys. Mind of Mencia is on. I've never watched it but its friggin funny shit.
Went to the mall today. I was bored and had money to blow so I did just that. Got a belt and a shirt and stuff.
Rainy days seem fit for photography. I was just thinking that cuz I took the bus to the mall and it was all rainy. One of these days I wanna take a bus to Seattle, preferrably on a rainy day. Go up with just some money and a camera and take pictures. I dunno why, but rainy/gloomy days are comforting to me; unless I'm cooped up in my house or something. I like to take walks in the rain, except having glasses sucks with it. I'm getting contacts soon.
I had some other stuff I think I was going to put in here, but I don't remember.
So I'm gonna watch tv and eat my doritos until I feel like going to sleep.
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| Yeah: Whats emo? |
[April 13, 2006 @ 11:34pm] |
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What is EMO?
"The word has survived and flourished in three decades, two millenniums, and two Bush administrations. It's older than four baseball teams, six basketball teams, four football teams, and two soccer leagues. It's older than five former Yugoslav republics, the last seven national spelling champions, and Avril Lavigne. It's older than most of its fans.
It's been a source of pride, a target of derision, a mark of confusion, and a sign of the times.
It's been the next big thing twice, the current big thing once, and so totally over millions of times.
And yet, not only can no one agree on what it means, there is not now, nor has there ever been, a single major band that admits to being emo. Not one.
That's pretty impressive. And contentious. And ridiculous. Good thing too--because so is emo.
Emo is short for emotional. But isn't all music emotional? Well, yes, or at least it should be. Originally, emo was short for "emocore," a strain of hardcore punk that was notable for its obsession with feelings (as opposed to politics, anger, and smashing stuff up). Then it started to be applied to bands that weren't punk, to fashion trends, to sad-eyed kids in the back of class. It's always been mildly derisive, a term used by haters and critics to dismiss something that's overly weepy, self-indulgent, or unironic. Every generation that loves emo bands simultaneously rejects the term while claiming owership of it--meaning even if they won't admit they love emo, they certainly will say how much they hate everything that's been called emo since them. But still, no one knows what it is."
-Andy Greenwald
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aaand I need to sleep. Night.
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| Do I update too often? |
[April 12, 2006 @ 12:13pm] |
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Oh well. If I do, you'll get over it
heh
But yeah. Half day. I bet you can guess what I'm doing... BABYSITTING! YAY! </sarcasm>
Sooo I'm listening to music/downloading music/etc
Came home and played geeetarrr until about 4 minutes ago. My mom came home sick and gave me her fries. Bleh. Fast food makes me feel icky. Thats a good thing, cuz I need to stop eating it.
I was just noticing how I usually don't remember my dreams, but I have been alot more lately.. Kind of odd. I usually NEVER remember them. But I've remembered them like everyyydayyy for a while. The night before last I had a very.. not good dream. It ended cuz I had to wake up for school, but I was like.. passed out from losing too much blood or something in my dream, in a bathroom at a friends house. It was odd. And I had another wierd dream last night too..
Whatev.
And I finally picked my book back up. I read like, 10+ chapters of it yesterday. The Da Vinci Code. Good book so far.
Blahh. And I just read back to previous entries of mine..
Now I'll go find something else to do.
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| Your stories, my alibis |
[April 10, 2006 @ 10:34pm] |
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I love that song.
Anyways. This is one of those entries where you don't really have to read. Its more like a note-to-self type thing. I did get a journal thingamajig, but I don't really go back and read that ever. And I only wrote in it saturday. Like 2 pages were actually journal stuff. It has these sections, and I randomly picked one towords the back for my 'other' writing stuff. I guess you could call them lyrics. But yeah, theres like 10+ pages full back there. And that was all from saturday. Except one page. From tonight. I was in a write-ful (?) mood saturday, ha.
So on to other things.
I was just going to ramble about things I want to change or improve or do more of. Like reading. I want to read wayyy more often. I've always had trouble because I have to have a book that grabs my attention. I'm reading 2 books right now, kind of. I haven't picked one of them up for almost a week but I'll get back into it. But if there's any really good books out there you'd recommend, let me know. Chances are I haven't read it unless it was required from school, and I'd like to. (read it)
My grades. Guh. This is probably one of the more difficult ones. Not because I'm stupid, or because the stuffs really hard or anything, I've just become a hella lazy kid. I used to do ALL of my homework the second I got home after school. I used to get straight A's (no, I'm not lying. Ass.) Now I sometimes do it the night or period before its due. My main problem is math, just because when I don't get something I don't ask for help, and thus fall further behind. I think I'm okay in English, and Pac Rim. Spanish... I'm not so sure. I've skipped a few times and failed a test or 2.. I made one of them up. PE, I don't really put an effort into it, but then again, neither do any of the teachers we've had so far. I think I'm okay there, cuz when I saw my grade today I had an A-. Sales. I have an A. Still. Easy shit manng. Glass. I'm okay there. I don't know my grade but I'm getting by ok. Dykman didn't flip out on my tiny retarded box, he said it was "cool". ha. (MY BOX IS COOL DAMNIT.) Oh and personal finance. Thats easy too, and I think I have an A. So basically I need to worry about Spanish and Math. So you'd think, since I'm such a smart kid and all and take the time out to post these things talking about my goals or whatever, that I might take the time out to study more and work harder in those classes. I guess thats too easy for me. I couldn't possibly take 30 minutes out of my day to do a math assignment, right? Shiiiit. So I'm gonna say I'm going to attempt to change that, and hopefully I will. (but I suck at doing things I say I'll do, when it comes to school)
What else.. Meh, the other stuff doesnt need much explaining. I want to practice guitar more often, because I haven't really played much within the past.. Month or so. I mean I've played, but just easy dinky shit. I'm not going to improve by learning the same power chords over and over again. And then there's who whole weight issue, which is blahhh. But I'm going to lose it, so its okay. Its not "I'm gonna try and lose it" anymore, because I will. I might be starting a diet thing soon. Diet/working out/exercising. Not much else you can do, assuming you're gonna stay smart and healthy. I need to get out more. Hang out more. Make some new friends. Cuz right now, most of mine suck huge cow testicals. So we'll see..
Oh, and I should try and get back into a decent sleep schedule. I woke up thismorning, took a shower, got dressed, got all my school stuff ready, brushed teeth, etc - all in under 10 minutes this morning. (woke up late) But I need to get to bed earlier, like around 10 seems good. Its like, 10:30 or something. Oops
Yeahh. I type too much. If you read all of that, you win something cool. ITs a surprise though.
'night.
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